Thursday, September 5, 2013

Waiting


Waiting for your call and message.
Kept looking at the phone every 5 seconds.
Praying and hoping that you’ll call in any minute now.
My phone still in a place, without a sound.
Thought my phone was malfunctioning.
Too busy for a call?
What are you doing now?
Have you forgotten about me?
Why you never call?
Questions whirled inside my brain.
The waiting process was torturing.
Swore that would never waited for your call anymore
It's hard being left behind...but it's hard to be the one who stays.
But still I am waiting….and waiting.

Waiting is one of the most miserable occupation.
Waiting for that life I thought I would have.
Waiting to become something else.
Waiting to be that person I always thought I was on the verge of becoming...one day.
And God knows when is that one day coming or maybe there's never have that one day.



D-Lite - I Love You

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Songs I Like

Passenger - Let Her Go

Dido - End of Night

Fuying & Sam - 分開以後


Songs I like and listening to currently.
Would like to share with you.
Fuying & Sam are the local singer. I never knew that they can sing well until I came across this song.

Picking the sentences I love from Passenger - Let Her Go lyrics:

Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
'Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast

Describe my feelings at times when I felt lonely.
Okay, not letting the dark emotion kick in, let's listen to a lively dance K-pop song.


EvoL - Get Up
  
I listened to this song while doing my 'belly & cardio' exercise.

 
CL - The Baddest Female

A cool MV from CL. She is a member from my favourite korean female group - 2NE1.
Personally I love Sandara more.
I like their fashion style & personality. Nonetheless, their performance are great too.
Super cool female group.

-Cheers-

Thursday, June 20, 2013

mY Home tOwn





I love to take photos of sunset and scenery.
Isn't it looks pretty with the orange and purplish sky?

My hometown, Sibu is consider a small town but geographical wise, it is big.
Not much attractions. No mega mall. No theme parks. No GSC.
However, we have the varieties of scrumptious local food and interesting local natives, Iban.
The long houses. Rejang River. Their traditions and culture.

Many people says Sibu is going to become a 'retirement' town. Why?
Because most of the youngsters have left the town to explore the world out there, hoping to look for a better opportunities.  

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Troubled with My Acne

My skin condition is getting worse in these recent 2 years. It changed from flawless skin to combination + acne prone + sensitive skin condition. What's going on??!!! Till today, I still couldn't find the answer to my problematic and sudden change of skin condition. I just could only blame it on my growing age as in a form of consoling myself.

I have been trying all the methods and skincare products and even listened to the advices given, hoping to improve my acne prone skin but to no avail. Some products did slightly healed my acne and rejuvenated my skin just a little bit. But when I was hoping for a better result after weeks or months of using, the acne sprung back again and sometimes they got worse with redness/rash on my face and the acne scars just won't fade away. Frustrating!!! Even the skin specialist doctor could not explained to me on my problematic skin and he just gave me the medical lotion for me to apply before sleep. Well, it did soothes my redness and pimples but it could not control the break out.

Okay, after trying so many methods without effect, I assumed that something must gone wrong inside my body or hormones or some woman's sickness. I decided to go for the body check up. Some people even advised me to conceive because they say pregnancy and during the confinement period,  it will help to improve my body, change my hormones and gradually improve my skin condition. So is it true? I doubted on that. I will give it a try if there's no other way to solve my skin troubles.


See, how serious it is!!! The photos were taken somewhere in March 2013. Now getting better already and would take photos again to show the improvement. Oh yeah, I am using 'Cetaphil' cleanser currently and I find it really good. It did soothes my acne and the scar is less visible already. *Cross fingers* Hope that there won't be any break out.

Friday, June 14, 2013

Wedding Day

Oh ya, I'm still trying to adapt to my new life, new environment and extended family members. I am slow in accepting the changes. Perhaps, it takes a year or a longer period. Our lifestyle and routine was totally different. I still could worked things out with my hubby if there was a different opinion but his parents' way of doing things and lifestyle really......yeah, I still need time. There was a communication barrier between us. Their traditional mindset just could not accept the new things or listening to the youngster. They think they are right ALL the times~! So yeah, let them be. It was really a tough role! *shaking head* Man never understand how pressure and tough for us and our married life. Aiks, I should stop my bad habit to ramble on and on about my pressure life~ Okay, I would like to share some details on my wedding day.

 Love this flower pot from Floral Sense, Sibu. I choose tulip instead of rose.

Well, I did not walked down the aisle in the church. We just had a simple morning tea and blessing ceremony by pastor in my house before the groom 'fetch' me to his house. That's my regret for the rest of my life for not walking down the aisle in the church. It was one of my dream, you know. Sigh. My mistake for not asking people's advice on the whole marriage procedure in church. There are some rules for holding a wedding march in church. First, you must not registered for more than 28 days or 1 year. Second, you have to attend the marriage class. Third, not moving in together yet. The rest of the rules, well, you know. And I broke the first rule!!!!We have our ROM for more than 1 year already. So that's a BIG no no no! I only found out the rules after we registered. @#$!#$%*^%  Besides, our different Christianity also a big question to us. He is a Catholic while I am a Protestant a.k.a. Methodist Church. If we really going to have a wedding march in church, so whose church should we go? Hmmmm. I want to go mine and he wants to go his. So end up, we got into argument. To save all the troubles, we just held a small blessing ceremony at my house. 

Signing an 'agreement' - wedding vow from my hubby
 Putting the ring onto your index finger and pronounced that we belong to each other!

When my dad walked me down the stairs and handed me to my groom, I almost burst into tears. Now I understand why the girls are crying on their wedding day. I hold back my tears because I didn't want to mess up my make up. It was sad to leave my parents and my parents' house!!! It felt like I was no longer belong to them anymore.

Another regret on my wedding day was I got myself an expensive and 'so-called' professional photographer. Really very disappointed and frustrated with their unprofessional-ism and lousy services. I only got my photos recently, after 6 months of my wedding. The photos taken were so 'unskillful'. That was because mostly was taken by his inexperience assistance. Guess what, the assistance could not find my hubby's house so he just went home without informing or asking for direction! Yet, we had to pay the full amount to them and waited for 6 months to get the photos. Moreover, MOST of the photos were f-ugly! @#$%@#$^& 

 My wedding heels - Morning wear

We were exhausted by the end of the day. Smiling and shaking hands. Both my face and legs felt numb and sore towards the end of the day. I was wearing 5 inches heel. Nearly got myself tripped and felled numerous times but luckily I could hold back. Oh yeah, I also almost got myself burned because the spotlight underneath was burning my evening gown while I was standing there shaking and thanking the guests for coming. I smelt something burnt but still I had no knowledge that my gown had been burnt into one big hole. I just brushed my evening gown behind and away from the spotlight. I only realized the big hole when someone told me about it. Ridiculously, the bridal shop owner asked me to pay RM1200 for that burnt gown. Hello!!! That gown did not looked that expensive to me. It was most probably from China which cost around RM200 - 400 the most. Besides, they could sewn or altered the hole and rented to people again. The hole was at the tail of the gown so it could be covered up. They did not returned my RM200 deposit and plus my gown rental money, that was more than enough for the compensation, right? Tsk tsk tsk tsk, trying to con my money. %^$&#(@!@#. I went for my honeymoon and guess that they couldn't reached me so gave up in the end. When I came back, I saw them putting up that gown on the display window again. Geez, really want to con my money!! Luckily I didn't pay them RM1200. 

 Toasting to the guests as a form of thanking them for the blessing and coming to our wedding reception! (I looked so pretty in this pink purplish gown, love it! ^.^)

Friday, May 10, 2013

Sweet Dessert

My hometown, Sibu has opened more and more franchise shops selling bubble tea. Some even proclaimed that they are originated from Taiwan or they are the number one's bestselling bubble tea in Taiwan. Hmmm I doubted on their proclamation because I never saw those franchise name when traveling to Taiwan or maybe I had overlooked. Anyway, is that a trend now opening so many bubble tea shops? Everywhere you go, there's a bubble tea shop.

Blackball is one of them from Taiwan. Its main product is grass jelly. Hmm no comment on the food itself. Just a normal sweet dessert.



Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Work WithOut Air-Cond


The air-conditioner in my office was not functioning well on these few days. Imagine us working inside the office without an air-conditioning on this sunny weather, it was unbearable! Sweating and no mood to work at all. Kept fanning myself with the papers. Phew, luckily we are allowed to move to the other side of office - temporarily.

Our election was just over. Read all the political news flooded on my facebook's page. If there was no social media, we really didn't even know how corrupted is our government. It was really very ridiculous reading some of the news. Annoyed and frustrated with some comments posted by some retarded people. They are the one creating the racism issue and yet they are complaining that Chinese are the one causing all these chaos. Only Malays are asking Chinese going back China. Did Chinese ask Malays go back to where they belong? No. Okay, I didn't want to comment much on the politics issue. Just open your eyes wide and look around. Do not put all the blames on Chinese. It was quite hurtful to hear all these racist comments.