- Lack of Exercisssssinggg......!!! -

p/s: I don't really like my side look. My nose is so small and I don't have a nice cheekbones so it makes my side look looks very flat.

My mum has been complaining that I am lacked of exercise and keep on pushing me to go for some work out. Nag...nag...nag....okay, of course I know that I am lack of exercise and my "fat" is hanging there. I know I am not fit enough or don't have any "S" body line. But I am trying my best to control my appetite and drink some detox tea for some "detoxifying". It's considered good for health too, right???

Not sure why I am so lazy to go for jogging or doing some work out. I don't like to sweat or exercising under this hot weather as it really make me feels sick. Before he went overseas, I will still went for badminton session every week......but now no more. Once in a blue moon, will go for the jungle trek. Jungle trek is so damn tiring and I can feel that my blood vein is gonna burst any minute or my heart is pounding so hard that I thought I am going to faint. My legs will go numb for a week, walking like a 80-years old woman. Well, this is what they said to me...."You are lacking of exercise and of course will have all these symptoms~!!!" Ya, thanks for reminding me that.

Okay, I will make an effort to squeeze my schedule or arrange a free time for......exercising~!!!

Pathetic Life

My life is pathetic. I try so hard to stay positive with everything and be happy or at least don't care the things/people around me so that I can get out of some depression state.

I never know that looking for a companion to have a dinner can be so difficult. As I search through my phone list, ya, I have friends on the list but none of them I can called up to. That's what I am saying... a "so-called" friendship.....They have their own life to live and busy with their own stuff. They don't have time for me or just for a dinner. Even if they are back to the town, they say will look for me but didn't. Okay, so I try to make an effort by looking for them instead and giving me so many excuses excuses excuses. I am tired of hearing all these excuses or your reason for being busy. Is that what they called "friendship"??? You guys successfully make me not to trust any of it. This is all so fake. Pretend to be a good friend of mine while you don't care at all about my life.

Honestly, I am getting more confuse with all these friendship, trust, or sincere thingy. I don't believe in all these anymore. I am tired of trying to be nice and be good and looks like everything is fine while it is not.

I care for you people but ended up being treated like this. I even went against a group of "barbarian" boys to protect you guys and ended up I am the one getting hurt while you people stayed out of it. Is that what you people called "friendship"??!!!!

Ya, I admitted I am a loner. I don't have friends. Oh no...correct me, I have Friends but I don't have GOOD or BEST friends who really really care about my life and death. Fine, I will stick to my own life and I think there's not a necessary for me to look for you guys anymore.

You make my life so pathetic........~ I am making an effort here, don't you see??? Don't push me to the end of the cliff......This is not me at all, I am afraid that I will be changing to someone I don't even know of.

I feel much better to blurt out all this.....here.

= Couch Potato =

Stretching...stretching~ !!!

I am well-known for being a couch potato. Undeniable. I can be very obsessed to the TV or should I say movie, drama or any shows that I am keen to watch on TV, my eyes won't leave the screen.

I can be very stubborn and selfish when came to the TV. No one can touch that remote control or change my channel. I am going to give my "razor" eyes to that person whoever did, oh well, except my dad. He is more fierce than me. But now I changed my target from TV to Desktop. Upgrade to more high-tech. Using PPS to watch all the dramas or movies or taiwan entertainment shows. So now they can't touch the desktop or online if I am at home especially during the holiday. That's the only free time I got to watch the drama/movie. Fully utilized my free time. Yep, I spend my whole weekends or holiday locked in the room watching drama. I only came out of the room when the sunset or for the washroom.

I guess I am becoming more "nerdy" since you........left ~ I only have drama, music and books as my companion and friends. I don't have to entertain them but they entertained me.

"New York, I love you" - I love the title for this movie. Is a pirated DVD... Oooppsss... forget it, the movie is not really that entertaining unless you are into those so-called "art" movie. Kinda boring but I got the message from the movie which it wants to convey the message to the audience. It was telling that different people living in this busy city - New York and how they came across one another, having a date, fall in love or conveying some kind of love message between a relationship. From strangers to a lover. From a lover to a stranger. How a stranger can leave some impact in your life. This is the life. Have you ever met someone who changed your life?? This question has been running in my brain for numerous times. Yes, I did. Throughout my life till today, I met different kinds of person and yes, some of them do left an impact on me or helping me or change my life. They came into my life and also walk out of my life. So my conclusion is till the end, I am still alone.

This is the latest korean drama I have been "chasing" - Cinderella's Sister. At first, I just watched this drama out of boredom but now I am addicted to it. I started to like the Big sister in this drama. Although she is cold to everyone and seems cruel but inside her heart, she is a warm-hearted and she's just a down-to-earth girl who is not good in expressing her feelings. Meanwhile the younger sister is cute and spoilted. From the appearance, she looks kind and soft-hearted but actually she is just a pretentious. She is thirsty for love and even she doesn't like it, she pretends she does love it.

Ta-daaaaaaaa.....This is the best US drama I have been fall in love with. Vampire Diaries. I am so obsessed into vampire thingy after the famous "Twilight" series. This vampire diaries is good too, I think better than Twilight. I like the cast and the characters played. Stefan Salvatore, Damon Salvatore and Elena Gilbert are the main characters. As can seen here, it was a love triangle. But I personally love Stefan Salvatore more than Damon Salvatore although many audience preferred Elena Gilbert to be with Damon. I hope the ending will be Elena and Stefan. The guy is so cute and good-looking. See the picture below. Don't you think his eyes are very sexy and he has a very charming look??? Sigh, I keep on forgeting his real name. So I only know him for his character played - Stefan Salvatore. Very italian name.

This is how I spend my today's public holiday without you here. Being a couch potato. Laziness keep on knocking my door. Till a day when I realized I need some work out then.
It was boring but I enjoyed the moment too.

I am going for the movie tonight - Prince of Persia. Hopefully it's going to be good.

= Exhausted Day =

I am so so so damn exhausted today from all the rushing, standing and running. From morning till the evening. But after the end of the day, I feel quite proud of myself as there's an achievement. For the past 6 months I have been so busy with works mainly just for today's half an hour meeting - AGM. All the time spend on preparing, writing, and issuing of Annual Report and Circular to Shareholders were just for this half an hour meeting. But some people just flip through or some don't even read it ~!!!! They didn't know how much work and time have been spend on it. And not to forget, MONEY too !!!! It's not cheap to publish the AR..... Sighhh ~

The schedule was fully arranged with meetings till the noon then I have to make the announcements and press release after 5pm. I don't even have a time to slow down or taking a rest or facebook-ing. Each year I was anxious whenever this AGM was just around the corner as it was considered a huge function for the company. I can't afforded to mess things up. All the Directors, shareholders and some investors will flew in for the meeting. So you can imagine how busy it was - to entertain those Directors. What worry me most was the questions from the shareholders or investors. If there was a question means I got more work to do........~

Anyway, all the meetings went smoothly and everything went well except some minor case which was solve-able. After all the hard work, is a pay off time. =D

I have this kind of a bad habit - indulge in food whenever I am sad, happy or motivating/rewarding myself. I gained more weight because of that. =.="""

Okay, I went to a Secret Recipe for having a light meal - actually is a supper just to reward myself for today's hard work and achievement. I have ordered a beef lasagne which came with a bun, one of my favourite menu from Secret Recipe. The beef lasagne taste good but the bun is kinda not fresh. Not soft enough. I prefer softness.

Then also ordered a Shepherd's Pie - taste good too. Imagine a person like me who is so choosy over food will like this pie means it is really good ~!!!! It was a mash potato on top, filled with chicken and mushroom. I am neither into pie thingy nor the potato lover but this Shepherd's pie really make me want to indulge or will think of order........

I told the waiter that I want two glasses of iced plain water and .......... he has wrongly heard that I want two glasses of iced lemon tea without making a confirmation with me again. Afraid that he heard wrongly, I tried to repeat the order to him. Worse, he heard of two glasses of iced lemon tea plus two glasses of iced plain water!!!! Okay, so I got to pay for that two glasses of iced lemon tea. I am kind enough not to return the drinks to him. No point of giving him a hard time.

Anyway, Weeeelllllll Done to myself ~!!!!!!

- Dear Diary -

Dear Diary,

Today is a rainy day. A cool weather which really suits me as I am afraid of hot and humid weather. I prefer staying in a cool place. Ya, sounds like I am some sort of a "vampire" ~...... Afraid of the sun.....Okay, no funny at all ~!!

Rainy day - the weather I hate most. I hate the rains. I hate to get wet. Rains make my mood dull because it looks like the sky is crying. Yup, I am in a moody state today. It's not a perfect day for me.

I have been busy with works till the clock ticked at 5pm. Then catch a movie, "Robin Hood" with my colleagues at night. Not really close with them and they are not close with me either. I joined them for the movie because I need a companion. They talked among themselves and didn't really talk to me except for some friendly greetings which is what I want or expected as I do not have to do the talking. I preferably to be quiet while enjoying the movie. It's kinda tiring to entertain and talking there after such a long hours of working. I just want a peace of mind.....~ Guess, I am not really a fun person to hang out with.

The movie is not really that great. I almost fall asleep with all those talking in the movie. Kinda boring actually. So nothing to shout about here.

After bidding goodbye to my colleagues and got into my car, I felt relieved to be alone. But I felt lonely at the same time. I am a loner with no good friends to hang out with till I have to be pretentious and hang out with those people I dislike of. They are pretentious and that's why I don't like them. I myself also a pretentious, a faker....so how can I have the right to dislike those people??? I am just tired to pretend to put a smile on my face and talk happily there as I am not happy neither do I would like to smile. That's why I dislike hanging out with them.

Anyway, when the sky is clear tomorrow, my mood also become better and I am back to my old-self again.....This is how to make your life keeps going ~!!! Mood down, blurt it out then mood up, forget it all ~

孤单，一个人

以前我以为我不能再过单身，或一个人的生活。因为我已习惯两人的生活。所以但你说要分手或离开我的时候，我很害怕。。。我害怕孤单，我害怕一个人。。。 虽然我每次都说我一个人没关系，但是其实我不想一个人。我怕寂寞。


你去国外进修。。也没有错因为那是你的选择，你的将来。我只能够让你去。我不开心也很羡慕你。你有机会去做你想做的事情而我没有这种的机会。。。


在这一段时间，我想了很多。也觉得你的离开也是一件好事。让我有更多的时间去想一些事情。我的心情也回复。。慢慢的好起来了。不象以前那样起落很大。。。我可以去做我想要一个人做的事情。让我找回那种单身的生活。偶尔还会觉得孤单。。。但是慢慢可以习惯它了。


我终是被抛弃的那个人或等待的那个人。好希望有一个人也会在某个地方等我因为从来都没有人等过我。。。。身边的人总是抛弃或留下我一个人。真的真的很无奈~


第一次用华语打一封这么长的。。。部落格~ 应该有很多的错字，对不起。。我还在学习。


还在等待他回来的那一天~。。。

-孤单，一个人-

- Waffle -

Yup, is a waffle again with banana, walnut and ice-cream toppings - my favourite.
This was from the Waffle Shop at One Utama. Nothing to shout about but it was nice too if just want something to bite and for a light tea break. The waffle was soft to bite and I love those walnut on it. This waffle was not cheap either - can't remember the price but if not mistaken, it cost around RM10++ .

This was not from the Waffle Shop. Hmmm if not wrong, ordered it from the food court inside The Gardens. It looks nice but not really taste good. Only the ice-cream taste good.

*Yawn*
-Signing Off-